..... .... ... .. . mimi

future or fun?

well everytime i experience something new,i feel sad but happy. my heart will beat so fast just to noe whats happening next. it feels like an exciting and mysterious soap opera. i didnt wanna noe all that but i just have the urge to just take a peek uh. yeah, could call me a stalker but i just wanna noe whats happening. well maybe my decions are forced ones just to make me feel better. i should be, cos i wanna enjoy living in this world. it is still a mystery why im still like this. i tried exploring my deep deep feelings but i still dont get it. to experience happy endings are great, but reality will bring us all back down to earth. anyway happy endings are all just made up, so dont expect too much. happiness will come unconciously, so dont expect it coz it may break ur heart into pieces.

people dont realize how lucky they are. the are not thankfull and dont appreciate whats around them. one day when the realize that they are torn apart and hurt then they will start to understand. understand how life works. understand what really sacrifices are all about. learning that life is not a game.

be sure of what u want. well, majority will want to have fun. nowadays, i see that love is over-rated. Love can conquere all. one word, bullshit! yeah,u could see the best couple in the world, the most loving one, but one easy question? whats next? marraige? i see people saving money nearly half dead, not eating out, sacrificing everything, just to get married. yeah, everyone sooner or later will achieve that,but again one question, whats next? what about the future. spend all 20 to 30 odd thousands just for the marraige but then have finacial problems after u tie the knot?

having a good carear and be finacial healthy is something everyone should think off. i see people rushing to get married but they are working jobs that dont have any kind of advancement. they never plan a structure on how to improve themself and upgrade themself but be happy with what they have rite now. but are they willing to stay the same in the next 20-30 years? i dont wanna be that. i wanna be successfull eventhough i start from the very bottom. i have a bad past but F it i dont really care. for me getting an executive position in a company is far more important that having that happening life. i dont drink and club anymore. people will think that im nuts coz im a clubberholic and an alcoholic. but wat ibu told me opened up my heart. she opened up my lfe to GOD. and im thankfull for it, alhamdulilah!~ she make me realize the importance of having a good carear and to keep improving myself. i dont care what people might say, but inshaallah i be successfull one day just like my mom. after that then i can think about serious relationships... well all this i have to leave it to GOD.

i dont look down on anyone. but think of ur future.

so have u decided on what u wanna do now?

i didnt pick up ur kol, was talking to ibu uh,gitu pun nak merajuk,dah tak reply msg semua,sukahati awak lah,well,no strings attached right? im still smiling,are you?

*mimi^botak

Tuesday, September 02, 2008 // 11:03 PM